The crisp air of January whips outside my family room window, tossing new leaves onto the life-sized pastel plastic princess castle I once upon a time declared hideous. Maybe it still is, and I just don’t care! But now I see something different. Not an eyesore, but rather another meaningful symbol that things are no longer what they once were for me—in my days, or my body, or my home décor, inside and out. And I ... View Post
Rainbows and Remembrance
Every October 15 for the rest of my days, I will light two candles to shine on Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. And when my girls are a few years older, I will talk to them about their two little angel siblings who never quite made it to earth. My mom had four miscarriages, and while not talked about all the time, it was always a mystical fact intertwined in our family dynamic. There were four of us here ... View Post
Restoration Software
To my precious blog readers! Wow. I cannot believe it’s been almost a year since I blogged. I’ve been healing, learning, surviving and—GASP—growing the third baby I hoped so deeply that God would bring to me in the wake of my second miscarriage. Reading my last post below brings me back to old tears and springs new ones, as I see in written ink that He is so faithful. Reese Victoria Mack, our third baby girl, came to ... View Post
I’m 32: From Me to You
Today is my birthday! I love getting older. I have absolutely zero qualms about pressing further into this decade. As my friend Jordyn said to me on my thirtieth birthday, and I haven’t forgotten: “I think a confident woman in her thirties is a thing to behold.” In that spirit, I would love to share with you these 32 things I know without doubt today, which I certainly didn’t know at 22, or even 29, at least not ... View Post
Threads of Grace
Valleys and peaks. Losses and gains. Doubts and answers. Soul-crushing anguish and incredible joy. Such is the human experience. Right? Unfolding in the predictably unpredictable patterns that make up a life. Of course there are the usual, everyday, happy-but-challenging, normalish lifey times, too. ... View Post
Every Time :: Part 3
Home again, for real. I couldn’t wait to see the girls, but halted abruptly halfway up our front walkway, filled with amazement. My mandevillas. The warm sun beamed down on the strong, exquisite, crimson flowers reaching beautifully for the heavens. Each individual plant must have grown a foot simply from standing up straight, out of the shadows. In a single day. The power of light. The Lord makes His face shine upon ... View Post